About a week and a half ago, the kids went back to school. That entire week, I started having annoying back pain, seemingly out of nowhere. It was really bothering me, especially when I started having sporadic pain down my arms and into my hands. I was blaming everything…..the change in weather, the tubing adventure I had the week before, sleeping funny, etc. I was complaining to a friend about it, and she listened. She suggested it was my huge purse. “Nooo, I have been carrying a heavy bag around for years, and it never bothered me.” She basically made me show her what I was carrying around.
10 pounds of crap. A huge wallet. A makeup bag with 6 lipsticks, nail clippers, makeup brushes, powder makeup, mascara, chap stick, tweezers, and tissues, Advil, Tums, a full bottle of probiotics, contact solution, a plastic shopping bag (for barf emergencies), deodorant, hairbrush, hair ties, keys, snacks, 2 random action figures, coupons, kids’ sunscreen, my son’s epipen, a cell phone, a rape whistle (yes, you read that right – thanks Mom), and 2 bottles of hand sanitizer. Showing off the contents of purse made me look like I was packed for a long weekend, and that I am definitely a Mom.
I was starting to get it.
I need to clean this purse out. NO. I need a smaller purse. I have been carrying around a different version of a huge bag for 10 years now. 10 years of 10 pounds.. That was when I started carrying around a diaper bag. Diapers, binkies, change of clothes. Eventually, I was able to stop using a diaper bag, but just ended up switching to a huge purse, still full of everything all 3 of us might need.
My babies aren’t babies, and they are carrying around their own bags now. The week my pain started, I sent my son to 1st grade, and my daughter off to middle school. Whoa, that was dramatic, let me tell you!
Was the cause of my pain maybe a mix of stress and a little sadness? Probably. That was an emotional week! And now I need to do something about this bag o’ bricks, and deal with how my kids don’t need me as much anymore? UGHHHH! Time to avoid!!
I saw that same friend again today. She brought up the conversation again. She told me to look at this differently. This is change, but change is an opportunity.
“Instead of thinking about how my kids are growing up so fast, think about how much lighter I will feel.”
-OK, I can get into that!
“Don’t look at how I need to get a new purse, because I get to shop for a new purse!!”
-“Wait, really? ” 😊
And just because my kids don’t need me to carry their stuff, doesn’t mean they don’t need me.
And just like that, the weight is lifted.